The 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline provides free and confidential emotional support for those in a suicidal crisis or emotional distress, it is available 24 hours a day 7 days a week. The website is 988lifeline.org ,they have helped thousands. If you need help, please reach out to them. You matter and your family and friends want you here, even if they are mad at you, they want you here. I know you may be thinking, I just can’t take this mental pain any longer, reach out to these folks, they CAN help you.